Exploring silence…


Silence is not emptiness, it is the centre of power and possibility. Sri Vasudeva


Ananda – the Bliss of the Self

pexels-photo-87232.jpegNotice how the ordinary pleasures are time based; there is a beginning and an end to the pleasure. You can only drink so much, you can only eat so much, you can only take so much substance. You have to go back for it again and again and again. However this ananda never ends. There is no beginning and end to it. It is ever new; it is joy ever new. This is why you can see mystics and yogis so happy in themselves, needing nothing. They may wear very little, but their faces shine with joy. They are not caught up in all the pleasure seeking. There is something else that excites them, that fulfills that need for pleasure.

Would you know it? It is there in the Self. When you capture it, you will never be excited about just the ordinary pleasure anymore. You will enjoy all the pleasures of the world for what they are, but never get caught in them. When they disappear, your joy does not disappear. When they appear, your joy is not increased. Your joy remains ever new. That ever new experience of bliss is in the Self. It is called ananda. Seek it! The more you come into that consciousness of freedom, moving away from the limitation and experiencing that expansive part of you, the more you are coming into anandaSri Vasudeva Day 6 Forty days 2017. For full talk and meditation go to  www. blue-star.org

Can You Feel Your Divinity Today?

You are born of freedom.  You are born of divinity in every moment. Sri Vasudeva


Stay In The Fundamental Awareness of “I Am”

Excerpt from Sri Vasudeva’s Morning Talk, November 10th 2016

Observe the energy of the ego in its drives, in its actions and reactions, in its inflation and deflation. But not only that, observe the root consciousness of the “I” that takes us right back to the Source: “I exist.” Not “I am this, I am that, I want this, I want that, I feel this, I feel that.” No, just “I am.” Go back to the root consciousness of the “I” and just observe. That is where you begin to feel that at that root, there is peace, power, potential, possibilities.

When engaged in the world, stay in that fundamental awareness of “I exist in this space, and this is what is happening in the space around me.” Begin to experience the space from that centre of being, that “I am” that is peaceful. Begin to experience the world from there and see how anger, jealousy, pride, lust may arise in you. See the qualities of goodness as well; peace, unity, harmony, charity and kindness. See how they play without judging them; “I am bad because a negative quality arises in me.” Say “This is interesting.” Change it from judgement to being interesting. “I want to understand how I become inflated, deflated, how I become judgemental, how I become caught.” Then you begin to see the process of how you engage in a very unconscious, compulsive, reactive way.

The more you can come back to that “I”  that fundamental space and observe, you can learn so much about what happens inside of you and how you react to things and how conditioned we become from the years of choices we have made and experiences we have had. And that is where real change begins; where you are able to see differently. If you cannot see differently, then you are caught; you react to people, you react to the world. But the moment you can see it clearly, then you see that you can choose differently, and that is where the transformation can be. So coming back to that root awareness of self brings you into a place where you can see more, and that seeing is important.


Acting on the Stage of Life

Sri Vasudeva once spoke on the concept of life as a drama or a play. It’s not a new idea, but I liked his description of it. He said, “ When we create a drama, then we know that whatever we are doing doesn’t change the essential character of the person.  Let’s say I am playing a vagabond or a thug in a drama – even though I’m appearing evil and negative in the drama or the play, my essential being, Sri Vasudeva, is not being changed by this drama that I am playing. So all the roles that we play in life, father, mother, friend,  teacher, doctor, lawyer – whatever it might be – all these are dramas because they don’t change the essential nature of the Self.

These are roles that we assume and these are roles that we’re going to have to leave behind when we leave this life.  Our ego may become transformed, influenced or shaped by these experiences but the Self, which is beneath the ego, is unchanged by the whole.  From the viewpoint of the ego that’s involved, it may not seem to be any drama but from the viewpoint of the Self, it’s all a drama.”

When I look around me and examine the many roles I play and the roles played by those who engage with me I can see that I perceive those roles to be large, minor, sometimes funny, sometimes serious…I can describe those roles in many different ways. Now how can I relate to the Being that is untouched by the role, the script and the action being played out? Let me look at myself. Which part of me is influenced by the experiences?  Is it the part that contributes to my feeling of identity, my idea of who I am, how I think about myself, perhaps my personality?

When I look at a movie sometimes I get caught up in the character and the script and forget that this is just an actor on the screen. So what do I already do when that happens? How do I view actors and what can I learn from them to help me to understand the unchanging nature of the Self? I can use my intellect when I get caught up and remind myself that it is only a movie.

It’s interesting to contemplate the unchanging nature of the Self.  One of my favorite excerpts from the Bhagavad Gita Chapter 2 says “Indestructible is the presence that pervades all this; no one can destroy this unchanging reality.  Our bodies are known to end, but the embodied Atman (Self) is enduring,  indestructible, and immeasurable. It is not born, it does not die having been, it will never not be; unborn, enduring, constant, and primordial.” It goes on in another part to say, “Weapons cannot not cut it, fire does not burn it, waters do not wet it,  wind does not wither it. It is enduring, all pervasive, fixed, immovable, and timeless.  It is called un-manifest, inconceivable, and immutable.”

So what traps us in the pain and misery if our Self cannot be tainted by any experience? It could be that we are identifying with the roles and the ups and downs of the actors on the stage, forgetting the play.  We don’t consider a movie to be good unless there is some drama to it, may be some light moments, some challenges, sometimes a little romance, these are also ingredients in the play of life. We say the actors are good when we forget that it’s a role they are playing. What would happen if we consciously were to remind ourselves in the different roles that we play that this, like a movie is only for a short time, and it’s only a role, not our true Self? I wonder if it will help me to play the roles more effectively. Can I drop the roles when they are complete like an actor moving from one movie to another, today playing one character tomorrow another? Do I even recognize when the role is done, when there is no more in the script and it’s time to move on to another drama?

Don’t you admire the skill of actors and wonder what lessons we could learn from them in how to become the master player of our life? How are your acting skills?